Life Goes On, With or Without You

10914902_10152692972144053_2774787161618968080_oMy rage about Ella has lessened, and I am moving forward again with my life. That was a horrible blow. Because of no witnesses (that would come forward) and no real proof, the investigator could only give that horror show of a human being tickets for other violations.

I guess the real justice lies in God’s hands.

In the meantime, life has gone on, and Sparrow finds herself an only dog. This seems to have depressed her, and the anxiety of being left alone when we are at work or school has caused her to tear things up. I feel even less safe than I felt before, and Sparrow is pathetically not intimidating in any shape, form, or fashion.

We have to have a second dog.

When I was looking for Ella at the Tulsa pound, I saw so many beautiful dogs waiting for homes. Tonight, City of Tulsa Animal Welfare posted this picture of the dog I desperately want:


I was going to have to wait until next week to adopt an animal, but my dad, who obviously is grieving over Ella with us, offered to get him for me now. Thank you, Dad! I don’t deserve you!

Everyone please send up a little prayer he’s still there tomorrow…or for my non-praying friends, keep your fingers crossed! This dog certainly will never replace beautiful Ella, but he is part of my effort to move forward, and hopefully, help me, my kids, and little Sparrow feel complete and safe again. 🙂

Thank you all for the outpouring of sympathy, empathy, and compassion over losing Ella in such a senseless and horrific manner. I can’t tell you how needed every one of your words was.

One day, the Lord will wipe away every tear, won’t He? I dream of that day!!



PS: Any suggestions for names? His name is Sargent now, but I don’t like that military kind of name. I’m looking for something a little less common. After all, I named my other dog Sparrow. 🙂

Name me for Bird
Name me for Bird

13 responses to “Life Goes On, With or Without You”

  1. 🙏, he looks very spirited, I like Jake too, I always name my pets like children. Ooh Jake Ryan – sixteen candles, from back in the day, (waaayyy back, okay). 😐, okay that was depressing. Sigh…. Praying for you.


  2. My fingers are crossed you get the dog you want or at least a dog you can love and who will give you some of the protection you need. I don’t share your faith Bird but I’d ask you please to try and get back to that part of what you believe in that brings you peace. Hate just engenders more hate and the world can do without that if we want to leave something good for our children and heir children.Also, I don’t want it tearing away at your insides. You won’t forget. you don’t have to forgive but you do have to learn to live with it.
    xxx Massive Hugs xxx


  3. He looks like a Teddy to me and whether it is him or another who comes home to join your family they will not replace Ella but there can never be too much love within a home that it cannot invite another in to share it xxx

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  4. There’s no words to describe how I feel… and nothing to comfort you… I don’t think right now you can be comforted…. I am just so angry… Anyway Catherine although it is not an original name… he does look like a “Prince” or a “King”…. Diane

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  5. OH Gunnar! How cool is that! Gunnar! Love it! Two syllables, def a “don’t f– with me” vibe. ( Belied by the adorable dorky face! 🙂

    Isaiah is cool, with the prophet and all, Alexander has too many syllables!! 🙂

    XOXO 🙂 V


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