I would like to thank blogventer, one of my newer friends, for nominating me for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award!! I will say, 
though, that I’m pretty sure I’m not “Keeping the Blogisphere a Beautiful Place”. There are some other adjectives that come to mind… 🙂 In addition to this award, I was also nominated for the Reality Blog Award awhile back from Water Bearer at Inner Angels and Enemies, and would like to thank her as well. I do appreciate you both thinking of me!
The rules seem pretty much the same for both of these awards, and I don’t follow rules for these things all that closely anyways.
If I nominated 15 people each time I did one of these, I’d never have time for anything else, and that would be 15 writers per award out there secretly cursing my name. I know at least one writer, Paula who has some experience with voodoo dolls, and I don’t like taking the risk. Admit it, my fellow bloggers! These awards are so flattering and make us feel appreciated and accepted; but by the time we’ve linked back to all our nominations, our will to live has been severely weakened. 
So, I’m going to wing it, and try not to bore you with yet another list of random stuff about me. Instead, I’ll share some dirt. Brace yourselves.
Six things about me:
1) I haven’t been writing about dating lately because I have been dating someone I really like, and though he’s read some of my blog, we haven’t discussed how he would feel if I wrote about him.
2) I’ve been torn about taking the parts about Chef out of the blog altogether. On one hand, I feel like people are helped by it, but on the other, even though he did some pretty crappy things, I can’t imagine it feels good to know someone just posted it on the internet. How do you tell a story about something that has so profoundly impacted your life like this has mine, and yet maintain some of their privacy as well? It’s a slippery slope when you start throwing stones at anyone, despite their guilt.
3) A few months ago, I did actually hit Chef’s girlfriend. It didn’t feel as satisfying as I had imagined it would, but I do feel somewhat of a bad-ass now. I cried about it for days, though, kind of nullifying the Bad-Ass Badge.
4) I’ve had panic attacks thinking about spending the rest of my life with Chef in it, haunting me with glimpses of the happy past.
5) I’ve had panic attacks thinking about the rest of my life without him in it..
6) I’ve had panic attacks when my DVR hasn’t recorded a program I’ve been waiting for all week, so don’t read anything into the panic attacks. 🙂
Nominate some blogs:
1) Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates, and Chocolate…Ivonne’s Journey – There are literally dozens of blogs written by people who have lost their marriages that I follow, but Ivonne’s way of coping is so close to mine, she feels like she could be related. Occasionally, she’ll steer me to an article about something I’m going through, and it patches me right back up. I simply love this girl.
2) Hometogo232– One of the things that I had wished I’d had going through all of this was my mother. Despite everything, I wish I could have crawled in her lap and just cried at how rotten things can be sometimes. Diane has more than once made me feel “mother-ed”, and I will always appreciate her gentle words of advice and comfort.
And that’s it, my friends. Thanks again for the recognition!!
— Bird
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21 responses to “Keeping The Blogisphere A Beautiful Place – Very Inspiring Blogger Award”
congratulations!!!!!
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Thanks!
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Thank you Bird, that was so sweet of you. By the way. I think you should keep the stuff about Chef in–it might help another women in the future notonly a stranger but maybe Chefs next target. So keep the truth out there for the world to see. You did not make it up you merely told the story. I am glad you hit his girlfriend-it sure made me feel good to read about it…and yeah I would have had guilt as well but hey every now and then life requires that we be a bad ass!!!! And I am glad you are dating someone nice—that gives all of us single’s out there hope for our turn.
xoxoxoxoxoooxxoox
ivonne
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You have a way of making even my crappy behavior seem kind of cool! I love you, too, Ivonne!!
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You make me laugh!!!!! Look it’s like this, when you are standing up for yourself or defending yourself–well you can’t always be nice. Heck, even Jesus got pissed off in the temple and over threw some tables and that was Jesus. So, yeah every now and then you gotta over turn a table or two :).
ivonne
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lol…I turned over her face with my fist. 🙂
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Sorry, but I think anyone hear will agree with me that she had it coming. She’s lucky all you did was just punch her—you let her off easy!!!!!
ivonne
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Damn I must have missed that post you know my feeling and I agree with agree with Ivonne one punch is getting off lightly you know what I would have done to her I still think tar and feathers would be a good look for her 😀
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Oh, Paula. Why don’t you live right here in Tulsa with me? Darn my stupid bad luck!
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lol…My little loss of my temper is brought up by Chef pretty regularly. I guess she had never been in a fight before, and she’s scarred for life. Whatever. I’ve accepted I messed up, but I’m not shouldering a bunch of guilt about her state of mind now. I’m finding out that her being somewhat of a martyr is one of the dynamics of her and Chef’s relationship. Creepy.
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Congrats about a few things in this post! I think you know which I mean. 😉
Blessings to you!
p.s. I have panic attacks when my shows don’t record either…Then I remember catch-up TV online lol
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lol..Thanks, Water Bearer. Thank God for On-Demand!
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Catherine..btw I had a dear sister named Catherine… I was so touched by your words..more than you know…I would send you an email but the last one I sent was returned…so you may have changed yours’… If you want to send it to me mine is writerwannabe232@hotmail.com.. Diane
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I’d love to hear from you! I don’t know why it would have been returned, but use this email address: birdmartin@aol.com. I appreciate you, Diane!
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Congratulations on a well deserved award!!
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Award Congratz!
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Congratulations on your blog award. I enjoy reading your post. I have not been able to visit blogs lately because i have been changing my blog theme. Visit anytime and let me know what you think. Blessing, Diane Roark http://www.recipesforourdailybread.com
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Dearest Bird, any revisions now would be like desecrating a piece of artwork. Ever see Picasso’s “Guernica”? I had to be educated to look at it, and when I was, it was the most horrifying commentary on war I had ever seen. Much like your descent into drug-induced hell, the education has been tremendous. Don’t change a thing.
Much love to you, Cathy.
V
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You sure know how to make me feel peaceful again, Vic. Thank you! I love you!
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Love you too, always, dear girl. Let’s ‘ketchup’ soon!
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Congratulations…
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