Light — Bekkie

I’m all about the lesson. In a way, I’m grateful for the past year. Lessons abound.

For instance, I learned that the worse things get, the closer God is. “Draw nigh to God and he will draw nigh to you.” James 4:8. At the bottom there’s no where turn to but up.

I learned that Satan well deserves his name, which means adversary. He is truly against God. When my dad turned away, handing the reigns of his life to his enemy, I learned about the nature of evil. In the same way that faith is like a mustard seed, the smallest of the seeds, that grows to be the largest tree, evil begins small as well. It starts with fleeting thoughts and compromise. It turns into secrets and justification. Satan, that wily devil, whispers sweetly that you certainly deserve whatever happiness you might glean from this fleeting life. He says there is no God, no judgement, no evil, no soul, when all of creation contradicts that notion.

Usually, when you think of pride, you think of someone who wants to take credit. I’m sure we all have moments when we feel proud of being Christians, of serving the one true God. Of course, we soon realize it was his mercy, his kindness, that drew us. “For whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.” Romans 8:30. So beginning to end, all God. No room for credit.

The desire is there, though. The desire to take credit. But Satan’s pride has gone further. In The Usual Suspects, Keyser Soze says, “The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn’t exist.” What kind of pride is this? A pride so advanced it needs no credit. He’s willing to share credit, to give it over completely, as long as his aim is accomplished.

I’ve also learned that even an average man, of average intelligence, can become very, very devious. It’s as if Satan’s thousands of years of experience and knowledge shine through his followers. There are now two Christians, both of whom have engaged in lengthy discussions of God with me, who have told me, “You don’t know the whole story.” Not to mention others, who I am less upset about. Always that exact phrase. You don’t know the whole story.

Consider this with me. I have grown up with this family. Each of these people. I know their habits, their preferences, their past. I was personally present for several of the ‘big incidents.’ Anyone considering this situation logically would never assume they know better than I what has happened.

Yet I don’t know the whole story.

“My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge:’ Hosea 4:6. I’ve seen people who aren’t saved be deceived. It’s a very sad situation. There’s some compassion that should be given, some mercy. The only sin they can be convicted of in that state is the sin of not believing in Jesus as the Savior, the Lamb of God, sacrificed to save us. Their defection is understandable. Their mind and spirit are clouded, they have no shield.

Of all the friends we’ve lost, the Christians are the hardest for me. The girl my dad is seeing is a Christian. We were friends before all of this. I’ve mentioned Emily, my friend, on here. She recently accepted Jesus as her savior. That was an awesome day by the way. Her boyfriend defected as well. In his way, he did as much damage as the girl. Ironically, the only two Christians in the bunch are the only two who have actively interfered in meaningful ways. I might yet lose Emily, which would be the greatest loss so far.

Their involvement hurts badly. Everyone else, my dad included, I can forgive easily. I remember my mind before the Holy Spirit took over. I know how easily deception is accepted, desired even.

So I’ve learned that it’s important for every Christian to move past the milk. “But strong meat belongs to them that are full of age, even those who by reason of use have their senses exersized to discern both good and evil.” Hebrews 5:14. They couldn’t have been deceived so easily had they been exersizing.

“A new commandment I give unto you, That you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this shall all men know that you are my disciples, if you have love one to another.” (Jesus) John 15:34-35. I don’t know that the world sees much of the love Jesus was talking about from us. I don’t really see it myself. That’s why I don’t blame people for not liking Christians a lot of the time. They have often had similar problems. If I didn’t know God-apart from his people-I might be tempted to ascribe to God the characteristics of his people.

“You are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his flavour wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden underfoot of men. You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hid.” (Jesus) Matthew 5:13-14. The world looks to us as examples of the God we serve. Please keep that in mind.

— Bekkie

19 responses to “Light — Bekkie”

    • “But the Lord said to Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord sees not as man sees; for man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7. People can be all of those things, and seem not to be, or none of those things and seem to be. I don’t know. I do know that the Holy Spirit indwells God’s people. “If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him. He that loves me not keeps not my sayings, and the word which you hear is not mine but my Fathers which sent me.” (Jesus) John 14:23-24. :Take heed therefore unto yourselves and unto all the flock over the which the Holy Ghost has made you overseers, to feed the church of God, which he has purchased with his own blood.” Acts 20:28. The Holy Ghost leads people closer to God. They can choose not to follow. I don’t know if that makes them unsaved. I do know that “Not everyone that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.” (Jesus) Matthew 7:21. I hope that helps


      • Oh, I love this conversation, and hope no one thinks my aim is division. I just happen to think the term “Christian” was first applied to those who followed the Christ, and when I see a baptized person not following Christ, I pause at using that term.
        Saved, maybe, but saved from what, is my question. Not from the power of sin, perhaps, and that leaves me hesitant again. Not to condemn, but to look, even and especially at my own life. and pull in some straying strands of questionable actions.
        Am I truly a Believer if I do not DO what the Word says to do? I mean, a famous Chrstian once said, “The things I do daily are what I really believe; all the rest is just religious talk.”
        And if my enire walk shows (according to that motto) that I do not really believe a THING the Word says, hmm.
        I just thought this wonderful post deserved a thoughtful answer, and since I hardly know all the “p-pool” details . . .
        I loved your answer, Bekkie. Loved it. ❤ K


    • Great post Bekki! @katharinetrauger There is no difference between those terms. But there is a big difference between someone who is “just saved” and a disciple of Jesus.”For many are called, but few are chosen.” (Matthew 22:14) The reason the world doesn’t see much of the love Jesus was talking about from us is because there are so fewer true disciples than those who are comfortable being just saved. I pray that God’s people will wake up and become the light and salt that the world needs to see.


  1. It must be so difficult for you to be in the midst of all this and see how your father has indeed acted so badly not only towards your Mom but his children as well… You are acting so supportive to your mother and I know she appreciates it and loves you for it so much. We all need support in crises…May the Lord bless and ‘keep’ you all….Diane


    • thanks. i feel a little bad, but dad doesnt bother me as much as others have. mom and dj are really the ones dad hurt. god used this for good a great deal in my life


  2. Beckie, you are a gifted writer and have shown your maturity as a Christian in your post. You are a wonderful gift to your Mom especially at this difficult time in your lives. You support each other in a beautiful way. May God bless you day by day and take you to new heights in Him.


  3. What a wonderful writing and it is clear that your faith in Christ is strong. Stay faithful and stay in The Word. Pray for and continue loving your parents following God’s leading. You are a good writer.

    Enjoyed the comments also.


  4. Your insight into this the enemy and his tricks is extremely profound. I enjoyed reading a post that doesn’t hide faith behind the laws of the church, or from the discomfort of a world who refuses to acknowledge spiritual systems. Your faith is being exercised through this as is your siblings, your Mum’s and your Dad’s. In order to overcome the enemy we must first come face to face with him.. Blessings to you Dear Bekkie


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