Planting Disinformation – It Isn’t Just For The Mafia Anymore

Years ago, the president of the motorcycle club, who is no longer in it, told me that one way the club finds leaks in it is by putting out disinformation and see who starts

Are they coming to get me?

talking about it. I’m thinking that the club just tried that on me yesterday. Oh, please. 

The old president of this state had his issues, but one thing I’ll always appreciate is that he was a good leader of people, and I’m sure glad I listened to him when he talked. For almost 15 years, he had been very successful in keeping drug problems at bay, and this was a very clean bunch of members. Boy, things took a bad turn in the small amount of time he’s been gone!!

Yesterday, Chef sent me a text informing me that he’d been kicked out of the club. I didn’t respond at first because he’s said things like this to me in the past, and they were never true. So, of course, I don’t believe him this time either.

After a few fishy texts from him, I simply told him I didn’t believe him. I thought he was just baiting me, and I wasn’t interested. He assured me that he would never bull$#@! about something like that. He just wanted to die. That concerns me, but again, this isn’t the first time I’ve heard this, so I did write back and let him know that I wasn’t happy that this had hurt him, and that even now, God hasn’t forgotten him. Not a word since then.

I hate these stupid little mind games.

Now, of course, it isn’t like I can find out from the Red & Gold nation if he is really out or not. Mainly because, I know about this Disinformation Game they play. So, now I’m torn between worrying about Chef and his state of mind and dealing with this suspicious feeling that they are playing head games with me. Couple that with all the stalking rumors, my public address and description of my car, my phone being tapped, etc., what is a girl to think?

Other than that, though, my kids and I had a really awesome day. Rebekkah got a fantastic job that pays better than  mine does. My son is heading towards rehab, and he’s beside himself excited about pulling his life together. My company, (mainly K, my friend and boss)  keeps blessing me every time I turn around; my doctor says I’m healing up nicely and I go see him tomorrow— he reads my blog!! How flattering!!! And a family that owns a restaurant I frequent here has suggested me using their 30′ trailer when my hotel stay has run out. Seriously. In one day, things seemed to soar.

So, believe me when I say, God doesn’t desert us, and just when things look the darkest, that is when his light shines so brightly. Thanks, Jesus. This has been a really hopeful, wonderful day. I love you!!

One thing about my girls, they don’t like to use public facilities, and Bek had to take a drug test for her new job. It took her about an hour and a half to relax enough to pee in a cup….lol!!!! She finally was able to, but mainly because she was dying for a cigarette and the testing place wouldn’t let her leave the building…LOLOLOL!!

Anyways, I hope every one has a really good day today. I plan on spending my weekend catching up on all of your blogs out there, and want to give you a heartfelt THANK YOU for every prayer, every encouragement, every angry rant, and for just being there for me to vent and cry to. I really do love you guys!!!

— Bird

13 responses to “Planting Disinformation – It Isn’t Just For The Mafia Anymore”

  1. You are far more understanding than me my first reply to chef would have been its not my problem go cry to your girlfriend, and I have to admit that at one time a response to a boyfriend who kept threatening to hurt himself was to buy him the paracetamol (he had cheated on me then wanted to cry on my shoulder after the girl who he cheated on me with got rid of the baby they concieved while sneaking round behind my back and I was only 16) he had made he choices he has to deal with his own consequences as you have had to deal with those he threw at you and has no right to bring his baggage to you anymore I hope you get the divorce through soon and get that out of the way so you and your three mazing kids can rebuild your lives and find the happiness you all deserve xxx


      • I only have my phone with me now, and I couldn’t figure out how to get the link, but it’s the most recent post on my blog. There’s also a pity party category if you want more details. I hope to see you there!


  2. Hey Bird! With each new post I read renewed optimism and I smile happily. It’s great to hear that you’re feeling better and stronger each day. It’s even better to see that things are coming around again, your son choosing to kick-start the process to rid himself of his addictions, more time being spent with your own life and children, and less to do with the smut Chef has been throwing your way. I’m just really happy to read all of this!! I’ll keep praying for you guys!!! <3<3<3


  3. i have always said you have spunk! you are bouncing back nicely. i would keep my ears open about Chef, but I would say nothing to anyone, just listen. you will know if it is a serious cry for help or a ploy
    love ya girl!!!!


  4. I’m just so happy that things are turning around for you and your family. I’ll continue to pray for your family’s safety and well-being. God surely is at work in your lives…..and of course Chef….Diane


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