After posting The Time God Disagreed With My Pastor, I got to thinking about the other prophecy that was given to me that I know for a fact was straight from God.
When I was 11, in an evening church service, one of the elders asked me to stand up, and he gave me this
“God says you are like a tree that has been planted by a great river. A storm, as powerful as a hurricane, will come and break you, and you will seem scattered, crushed, lifeless, splintered, devastated. The people will stand around you and say, ” The tree is dead. It could not survive the storm.” But I want you to know that your roots go very deep, and you are not at all dead, but will grow straight and tall, more beautiful and stronger than before. And those same people will marvel that you are alive, and not dead.”
I know this word was real because a year later, someone began to sexually abuse me, which lasted for years. In my desperation, I went to a pastor for help, who informed me that I had a demon of Jezebel, which I had inherited from my father, and the man who had done this to me had just given in to temptation, but that it was basically my fault….Horrible words to tell a young girl who is going through something like this. Also, not at all what the Bible says….Within a decade, my faith in mankind was all but ruined, and I found myself unable to trust any one..One person after another let me down, whether intentionally or not. There were times in my life that literally, I couldn’t trust another human being on earth. But I never quit trusting in God. He was my root.
I can’t imagine that had anyone met me at any given point from the ages of 12 to 30, that I would have looked like a healthy, thriving Christian human being. I’m sure I have a few people in my life now that would probably discount me as a real Christian.
I’ve been broken, scattered, crushed, devastated. But now, as I look back at my life, I see how God was, at that time in the evening service as a little girl, giving me hope that through all of this scarred life, I would still become straight and tall, beautiful to Him again. And those same people who thought that they knew I was dead would see me alive again…. and marvel…
There is no life any of us have led that can separate us from the love of God. Mine should be absolute proof of that.
15 responses to “Surprising Your Audience”
Wow Bird..I don’t have words..just tears.
I’m so sorry you went through that..But I’m encouraged that you never stopped trusting in God..
This is inspiring..I just want to give you a hug *-*
I’ll take the hug!
I’m not sorry all of these things happened to me. I think God was equipping me to be able to help others… All of these things helped shape me into who I am today, and I don’t break easily.. 😉
Thank you for the hug!
I know what you mean..I’ve been through things where I can say now that God put me through them in order for me to be able to help other people through the same things..but I just think your so brave talking about it..If I could talk about things..I mean..without feeling like I was being judged..I’d talk about it..God’s love is amazing and it’s the driving force behind a lot of why certain people are the way that they are today 🙂
It took me a long time to be able to talk about any of this. But, I figured if I wanted to be able to use the tools God has given me, people were going to have to know the sad truths about me. Turns out, very few people that really matter to me have ever said anything negative. Go figure… And the one or two who have been critical..well, I don’t see any growth in their spiritual life. They seem to be stagnant..and I am okay that they see me the way I am…because I can see them too, and I think that is what bothers them so much…Once you stop fighting who you are and how you came to be, I think the defensiveness kind of ebbs away. It simply is what it is.
those are the most beautiful, uplifting words from him to you……..
Right. I cried when I wrote them down..
Yes, even now there is a tendency to blame women when men misbehave…it is all your fault, you ought not to have dressed like that!
I took on a very powerful priest in my parish just a couple of months ago when he tried to stop my wife from church because she was not dressed “appropriately”. By the grace of God he was forced to publicly back down…you can read about this in my blog if you so wish.
If man is led by wolves, it is because we behave like sheep…
You are inspiring. Your story is compelling and will help many others. Blessings…
Thank you for your kind words!
you make me sad sometimes with these stories.
Sorry baby. Some things are just sad.
After reading a few of your blog post…I sure do hope you are apart of a church that is feeding you the uncompromised word of God full of revelation knowledge and that the people around you are an encouragement. Lady you sure do have a story to tell.
Not at the moment. Maybe someday, but I got a little burned out with the whole thing..lol, I know!
I know it’s hard to find good honest people now days. I pray that God sends those people your way.
Hebrews 10:25 And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near.
Shaking my head Bird, but I’m not surprised. You learned not to go to “leadership” with personal issues ….the hard way. But sadly, it proved who was the fox in the hen house. I’m sorry this happened to you. The way things stand in churches right now, God won’t allow me to go, even though it’s “tradition” ya have to be in “church”, There was a reason Jesus said he hated the doctrines and deeds of the Nicolaitans, but if you ask the average Christian what “Nicolaitans” means, even though they can quote scripture from Genesis to Revelation, very few will be able to tell you the definition. You never hear this preached in churches. Telling, isn’t it?
Me? Praying for wisdom that only comes from God, and the discernment that will hopefully keep me from being burned again by “church folks” and their preacher. I’m not bitter, it’s just that I’ve learned not to trust everything just because it comes cloaked in sheep’s clothes.